I wait for this book to grow by itself. I wait for this book to write me. I do not know anymore how to "write" -- I do not want to talk about what I know, this is not the reason for my notes -- I am searching for what I do not know.
How to tie my personal story with my thoughts? Maybe the metaphysics pages are not too personal? Not emotional enough to be my thoughts?
I try to be simple; it's my story and I want to tell it for my children. They are old enough to understand a love story. The story of their parents. And maybe my grandchildren will read it too one day. I keep my metaphisics notes as a part of the story, because this is what I wrote, while my family life was falling apart. I still believe that the notes can provide personal and historical backgroung for events we experienced.